The story describes the moment after she's found a new hue-chartreuse-and has decided to buy the piece: "One finger, a few clicks, that was all she had to do. Add to cart. Checkout. Then Google would know her, the machine would let her. . . . Always a hesitation with the credit-card click, that was part of it. The held breath, the raised finger, the uncertainty, a sense of underlying stakes."
This memento mori is archly juxtaposed with the narrator's breathless infatuation, which feels as if some great transition was occurring inside me, something was aligning, I could actually feel it.
Christian Carter's self-assessment of his honesty as a nine emphasizes the disconnection between self-perception and reality, especially in a courtroom setting.
When I get dressed, I become a philosopher-king-not in the sense of presiding over utopia, but in the sense of trying to marry politics and intellect in the perfect imitation of God. Political considerations might include: destination, company, self-image, self-regard, in-group and out-group arrangements...